Capturing Abdundance...

One attribute that most human beings have is the desire to "be better".

We start each year with resolutions. We reflect on what happened last year and look forward to the possibilities of the year to come.

We carry out rituals, do yoga, pay for seminars, life coaches and books - all in the name of self improvement.

I contemplate self improvement a lot. Most times to my own detriment. There is so much I want to inwardly improve upon that I will overwhelm myself... then self defeat creeps in and I sabotage any forward momentum I may have initiated.
(Oh and by the way - that behavior is one of the primary things about myself I want to amend.)

One of my friends and I were chatting the other day and she said, "Stacey, people don't change." I wanted jump out of my chair and scream-  YES THEY DO!!! They have to change - it's the only hope I have - please don't take that away from me.  If people don't change that means I can't change and I want to change I need to change..... so that I can have an abundant life - - - - - I have to change.

I grew up in an environment where the overall energy was survival. My family unit struggled to make ends meet. Even though I never felt impoverished (thank goodness) I did feel like it was enough just to have enough. I was taught the meek shall inherit the earth.

My dad, brothers, and uncles would go big game hunting in the winter so we'd have meat. They would bring home Deer or Elk if they were lucky and brag about how many tips the antlers had. The more tips the bigger the kill, the more meat for the family.


I often wonder what children who grow up in upper class households thought patterns are. Because they were raised in a thriving environment they are more likely to thrive - it's in their programming.

I am not at all complaining about my upbringing - I have wonderful memories of my childhood, I just make the point to establish why my brain has been programmed to survive and not necessarily thrive.
Thankfully I know how to survive - what a blessing that is. Now I want to thrive.

The interesting part about all of this. Is that when you have the survival programming it doesn't matter if you thrive. You still believe you are only surviving. No matter how many material things I acquire, no matter how much money I have in the bank, I observe my thought patterns and they move toward lack, toward not having enough, toward fear.

This is what has to change. I have more than enough and now I am capturing abundance.